In her first public assertion since her courtroom testimony, the singer instructed her 30.6 million Instagram followers on Thursday that her social media persona had given the flawed impression and that she regretted “pretending like I’ve been OK the past two years.”
Spears has been topic to a court-ordered conservatorship since 2008, following a collection of private points that performed out publicly.
Posting on Instagram, the “Baby One More Time” hitmaker opened up about her remorse that “pride” prevented her from revealing she was “going through hell.”
“I just want to tell you guys a little secret,” she wrote. “I believe as people we all want the fairy tale life and by the way I’ve posted … my life seems to look and be pretty amazing … I think that’s what we all strive for!!!!”
The 39-year-old star continued: “That was one of my mother’s best traits … no matter how shitty a day was when I was younger … for the sake of me and my siblings she always pretended like everything was ok. I’m bringing this to people’s attention because I don’t want people to think my life is perfect because IT’S DEFINITELY NOT AT ALL.”
However, Spears mentioned, pretending to be tremendous on social media has “actually helped.”
“If you have read anything about me in the news this week … you obviously really know now it’s not !!!! I apologize for pretending like I’ve been ok the past two years … I did it because of my pride and I was embarrassed to share what happened to me … but honestly who doesn’t want to capture their Instagram in a fun light!!!! Believe it or not pretending that I’m ok has actually helped.”
“I decided to post this quote today because by golly if you’re going through hell … I feel like Instagram has helped me have a cool outlet to share my presence … existence … and to simply feel like I matter despite what I was going through and hey it worked … so I’ve decided to start reading more fairy tales!!!!!”
During her court docket look, Spears mentioned different individuals have managed and exploited her all through her life and that “I want and deserve changes going forward.”
In response to her remarks, Vivian Thoreen, an lawyer for Jamie Spears instructed CNN, “Mr. Spears loves his daughter and misses her very much.”
An extra court docket listening to is ready for July 14.