“I know I’ve been quiet, and lord knows you don’t want to hear about me, but I want you to know I’ve been sitting in a hole of deserved global punishment, the ultimate ‘sit here and think about what you’ve done,'” Teigen wrote. “Not a day, not a single moment has passed where I haven’t felt the crushing weight of regret for the things I’ve said in the past.”
Last month Stodden, who identifies as non-binary, went public with Teigen being merciless to them on social media years in the past after Stodden, then 16, married then 50-year-old actor Doug Hutchison.
Reflecting on it in her Medium piece Teigen wrote, “As you know, a bunch of my old awful (awful, awful) tweets resurfaced.”
“I’m truly ashamed of them,” Teigen wrote. “As I look at them and understand the hurt they caused, I have to stop and wonder: How could I have done that?”
According to Teigen there are “more than just a few” folks she must publicly apologize to and she says she’s been reaching out to a number of the folks she was imply to privately.
Those folks, she wrote, “needed empathy, kindness, understanding and support, not my meanness masquerading as a kind of casual, edgy humor.”
“I was a troll, full stop,” Teigen stated. “And I am so sorry.”
In the piece revealed Monday Teigen wrote, “I want to go a little further here, thinking of those I’ve hurt and friends I’ve disappointed” with what she known as her “snark at some celebrities” that she did through “jokes, random observations.”
“In reality, I was insecure, immature and in a world where I thought I needed to impress strangers to be accepted,” Teigen wrote. ” If there was a pop culture pile-on, I took to Twitter to try to gain attention and show off what I at the time believed was a crude, clever, harmless quip. I thought it made me cool and relatable if I poked fun at celebrities.”
Teigen stated her piece was to offer folks context, to not painting herself as a sufferer. She’s grown since then, she stated, married, had youngsters, gotten remedy and been on the receiving finish of sufficient trolling to know the injury she has finished.
“I’m more understanding of what motivates trolling — the instant gratification that you get from lashing out and clapping back, throwing rocks at someone you think is invincible because they’re famous,” she wrote. “Also, I know now how it feels to be on the receiving end of incredible vitriol. Believe me, the irony of this is not lost on me.”